Hello to everyone and Merry Christmas. My heart is very heavy right now but there is still much gratitude! Sometimes it stinks to feel!
My gratitude extends to all my family and friends this Christmas Eve. I am so grateful to all of you in my life. I am grateful for the opportunity to take care of Mom and be here for her. We have made this Christmas special with lots of lights and goodies. Only the Lord knows if this will be her last Christmas.
My heart is heavy also, that she is becoming more distant. She talks so much less than she did. She won't answer most of the time when you ask a question or she will repeat what you say. I knew early on that this was a part of her disease, but until it starts happening you just don't think about it.
On a note of Gratitude, last night when I tucked Mom into bed, (yes I tuck her into bed), she said, "I love you". Now that's really special because usually I say, "I love you", and then she tells me. We have our little ritual each evening. I began to get teary eyed and told her thank you. That's what makes this all worth while.
Will catch up more after Christmas. Much to do: Parties, midnight mass for Grandma, and then off to Ocala to see family tomorrow.
See gratitude in everything, it makes life a little easier! Until next time, be happy and hang tight!
